introspection only kills lysosomes

Today at work I was googling “Non-Traditional Law Careers”. I don’t know why. I’m never been one to deviate from the mainstream or go explore an alternative anything. Never skipped a step, never pulled any punches. Just a good, rule-abiding kid. Never been exceptional or singled out for advancement or development. Just normal.

The thing is, I would never not article,or use my law degree ‘in a variety of other fields”. Give me a break. I paid the bucks and did my time, I want every prestige and reward I can afford.

I looked at the McGill, Western and UT career services websites, and they say to do a ‘self-assessment’ to see where you might fit well. And as I think back, the things that I still define myself by are not that different than in high school. wtf? This is two degrees, a commission, and three cities later. I guess we all start developing our identifies in those turbulent teenage years. And there are things fundamental to us that do not change and blah, blah, blah. I still have faith that I will turn out to be who I’m meant to be, but maybe it’ll take longer than I thought if I haven’t grown all that much than from when I’m 17. Okay, I’d like to think I’m wiser now, and more experienced, and totally not like that frosh who is going to arrive on campus bright-eyed bushy-tailed in 3 weeks, and of course I am sure that I am not that person anymore, but who am I now? I’ve still got two more years of school to go. I like school, but maybe that’s ‘cuz I don’t know anything different, and boring summer experiences are not an indication of anything. I think I can do well in law. I just want to start doing it now. Or never, if that'd not what I'm suppose to be doing.

talk with dad

My mom called my dad a couple days ago, and found out that my grandmother (in Shanghai) has been in and out of the hospital for the past month. She's over 90, and she's not lucid anymore. My dad says he's been working 24 hours a day for the past 6 weeks, because she is sick. It's sad and disheartening, but mostly my mom was disappointed and a little mad that my dad didn't bother to call to tell her that she's been sick. Anyway, that aside, my grandmother is in a seniors' home now. And as much as possible, I try to leave my parents' issues theirs alone.

Had a really good conversation with my dad though. We almost didn't speak for a year after I made the decision to go to law school. Not really by design, we just don't talk much, and I've avoided even those few opportunities that have presented themselves. Anyway, he asked about my studies and work and life, and I told him a little about course selection and my boyfriend, so it was a good start. I know this sounds ridiculous, but interacting with my dad is a little like interacting with an ex for me. I'd send emails, and won't get any responses; but when he does talk to me, I'm all excited and blogging about it. No wonder my social skills with the opposite sex is wacked.

for a good smoothie

Finally got the blender I wanted:
I have searched high and low, and compared prices, and such, but as luck would have it, the one that I wanted (this one), went on clearance price for $49.93, from $99.93. So I finally have one, right in time for this nasty heat wave. It also comes with a chrome jug, presumably for ice crushing. Very cool.

I am taking this Thursday and Friday off for a seminar in Toronto called Preparing to Practice in the Vancouver Bar. Then it's long weekend, so another mini-vacation for me. Then when I come back, it'll just be three weeks 'til school starts. Can't wait. I've got two part-time jobs for the fall, maybe another if I take on cadets again. We shall see.

My boyfriend's parents put up this mesh around our balconey for us, to keep out the pigeons, so now it looks like we live in a birdcage. What's worse, the little buggers still find a way to get in, but have no idea how to get out now. I've duct-taped everything I can reach, so hopefully I won't be coming back to starved bird carcass next Monday.