Spooky

Jonathan carved this for me. Prizes for anyone who can guess what it's suppose to be!

Not Knowing

I got an email today that says that one of the firms that I met with at the on-campus interview doesn't have the availability to meet with me for a full length interview. It's not that big a deal, because obviously they are eliminating people at every stage of the process. And I'm not even depressed or particularly frantic but the summer job yet. I think I've mostly recovered from Vancouver, and now am just trying to deal with things as they come.

I feel that the bar keeps getting set higher and higher, and I am starting to doubt my ability to keep clearing it. It is not that I have never experienced failure before; of course I have. But now things that really matter are harder to accomplish, and many things are a lot scarier than they are or should be.

Faith is about believing without knowing though, right? So I've gotta believe that it'll be okay, and both sunshine and rain lie always ahead.

No Dice

It's the end of the week, and I haven't heard from from the Dept of Justice, so I have to admit that I didn't get the gig. I had my first interview on Monday at 3pm, and they called me back at 5:30pm to go back on Tuesday, 8am for a second interview. There were 2 interviewers in the first, and 4 interviewers in the second. I blew that 2nd one though, big time. I've never messed up something so badly. I named a BC case, and then proceeded to discuss an ON one as if it were the BC one. What a mess. I was kicking myself as soon as I walked out of there. I know it was great to get a second interview, and it's good experience, and blah blah blah, but I really wanted it, and it was pretty expensive to go out there. I'm just disappointed with myself, it's all.

The boy is being extra supportive and sweet though. He sent flowers to my hotel in Vancouver! It's one year soon. =)