learning to be happy

It's hard to be content, when you know you can be so much more. But life is not perfect, of course, so we have to take the good with the bad. Seems like my job is going to be awesome, but can't count on anything exciting happening on the relationship front. Which is probably a good thing. I know they say you should take time for yourself, enjoy being single, etc, etc. But how many people actually forgo a chance at butterfly-in-tummy bliss for normal? I should not complain; I am among many friends here. So what if we don't talk? Is it really a big deal to not acknowledge a tumultuous affair that lasted far longer than it should have? One that ended on an October day two years ago? We have put each other through hell, there is no reason to destroy each other again for the possibility of a smattering of good days. We had our chance. There is no going back.