he was just not that into you

So if your bf tells you that he isn't sure about marriage, or kids, or commitment, or whatever, it is just bullshit.  Cuz all that translates to is that he isn't sure you are the one, and when he finally meets the one, he'd be engaged.  So don't ever wait around for someone to change.  It would be just totally a waste of time.  

Damn.  I was having a really good day until about 15 minutes ago.  

There Are Places I Remember

Just went a whole week without putting a suit on, and it was glorious!  Flew to Toronto, 3 days in Washington D.C., back to Toronto, back to Edmonton, pretty much straight to the office.  I just can't keep away, I had to know how the trials are going.  

Washington D.C. is really gorgeous, really European.  The statues and monuments makes me feel like I am still on exchange, exploring a new city with a backpack, running shoes, and walking all day.  The Arlington National Cemetery was especially sobering; Capitol Hill, full of construction and anticipation for the inauguration.  The best part was of course seeing my friend from Leicester, who was in D.C. for a conference.  I miss those 3 months of my life so, so much.  As kids, the end of camp seems like goodbyes are forever.  But now we are grown, and have means, and can travel the world, just to say hello again. 

Show a couple friends in Toronto, which was nice. But, I also feel like I have drifted very far from their day to day lives.  I had two friends who got married, and I had no idea of when it happened, though I'm happy for them.  I just feel, untethered.  And what feels like freedom at times also feels like being adrift, unbelonging.  

In Remembrance

This is the Edmonton Vigil 1914-1918, last stop of the repatriation by light of the fallen Canadians of WWI.  It was a clear night, and just simply beautiful.  I went to the Butterdome service today.  First snowfall greeted me this morning.  Life is full of hope, at the moment.