Online Dating

Not a good idea.

Lesson learned. 

"normal"

This is the state of my life:

On Wednesday night, in a desperate attempt to finish my assignment due on Thursday, I was at work 'til 6pm, and then went home and worked on the assignment, until 10pm, at which point I took a nap for an hour, and then worked 'til 2am, when I really couldn't anymore. Got to work at 7am as usual on Thursday morning, went to court 'til 10am (luckily a short day), and hid at the courthouse library to do the assignment from 10am-2:30pm, at which point I submitted it before the 4pm deadline. I had to work in the courthouse because at work, even though they are suppose to give us time to do these assignments, I still get continuously interrupted by last-minute demands and the steady stream of cold calls to screen for senior lawyers. So on Friday morning, I inadvertently slept in 'til 7:05am, and the receptionist (the nicest person ever), left me a message at 7:25am say that she is worried about me, since I was not at work yet, at 7am as per normal. Such is my life.

Calgary
I haven't been in Calgary for a year, and had totally forgotten how much cooler it is than Edmonton. Had a great time meeting up with a friend from England. Made me miss my Leicester days a lot a lot. Such an idyllic time of discovery. I want to go aboard again, stat. Also saw Passchendale with Marc, which was pretty good, actually.

Break
In class this week. A magical time of 9-4 days. I got home today and there was still daylight. I actually felt like doing laundry, making dinner, and baking an apple pie. Wow, this is normal life. Think I can ever have that, and a career I love?

Giving Thanks

Despite all my complaining, I am grateful for my life as it is, right now. I finally feel like I am concretely building on a career, and the goal of becoming a lawyer, though still a half year + away, is at least in sight. I am grateful that after so many interviews, and my adamant insistence all through law school to have nothing to do with criminal law, I ended up with an article that's pretty great, and well suited to me. There will be frustrations from judges, lawyers, partners and peers to come, and hire-back and what's next to worry about in the new year, but for today, I can be content, and give thanks for what I have. I'm still here.

Oscillation

I am oscillating between homesickness, dismay at the lack of learning at my job, no idea why I am sad, stress about what's next after articling, even though there is 8 more month to go of that, and it's getting cold. What is wrong with me? Next week is Thanksgiving, and there'll be a potluck at church. I don't even care about Thanksgiving; my family doesn't really celebrate it, so why do I feel like I'm falling apart, a little?

This is the longest time I have ever been away from home, though I really thought that doesn't bother me anymore. What is happening?