Just returned from a whirlwind trip to Toronto. Left Wed night, arrived at midnight, mom picked me up from the airport. Then spent Thursday packing all the stuff that I will be shipping to Edmonton. Met my cousin's new baby, Anderson, and he slept in my arms for 40 minutes. Of course I didn't move my arms for the entire duration, for fear of awaking him up. Met bf's brothers. Friday morning, dropped off all the to-be-shipped stuff at the moving company's, drove into McMaster to pick up my cousin to be home for the long weekend. Then, to Mississauga to attend Tasneem's
mehendi ceremony, in which I got a little henna done too. Dim sum Saturday morning, a bit of shopping, and then to Taz and Jim's wedding banquet. It was just perfect. The speeches were sweet, funny and time limited. There was a kissing game in which guests have to demonstrate how they would like the couple to kiss, and one pair of guest turned that into a Bollywood short. It was also a reunion of sorts of all the Mac people I haven't seen since graduation, six years ago. I can't believe it's been six years. Church on Sunday at St. James' Cathedral downtown, and then two Thanksgiving dinner. Flew back this morning.
There was a moment, as we stepped into the cathedral, when I realized that I could go to the ends of the earth with him. It was a shocking realization, but beautifully so. But then it also hit me how very much I miss Toronto. So I am terrified now that the day will come when I will have to make that choice: to be with him here or to be with my family there. He is adamant that he will not move back to Toronto. It's like playing the biggest game of chicken.
But for now, we have bought a townhouse that we are moving into just one month. I've booked plane tickets for a surprise weekend getaway for our one year anniversary weekend. It's snowing in Edmonton but things are good; very good. I will let tomorrow worry about itself, if I can just stop feeling homesick. But for a family that I miss, a man that I love, and a job that I enjoy, I am thankful.
