Herstmonceax Castle

So this is what I can be doing this summer. I just got an email acceptance today. May and June in the UK, July and August (hopefully) in Cold Lake -> sounds fantastic.

reading

I started reading a book called Status_Anxiety last night. It's pretty good. Haven't you ever had the crippling fear that you are screwing things up? I have. I also finished Adrian_Mole_and_The_Weapons_Of_Mass_Destruction recently. That was a hoot!

Back from Reading Week now, for the final 6 weeks of classes, and then 3 weeks of exams. Then, who knows what I'm going to do for the summer.

shadowing

Yesterday, despite the 5:15am start, was a most inspiring day. I job shadowed a Crown Attorney in the St. Thomas courthouse/police station all day. I was in bail hearings, and met a Justice of the Peace, saw Justices, Police, Crowns and Defence Counsels in action, and laid eyes on a first degree murderer. The youth offender cases were a little disheartening though. The coolest part is that my host lawyer was an air cadet and CIC officer too!

Screw the books, I want to start practicing law right now!

unstuck

Home now, courtesy of Avis. Ah Toronto, the Land of the Living. How I have missed thee.

stuck-ed

I'm suppose to be home right now. Or at least on my way home. It's reading week, but my car won't start last night. So now I'm stuck here in Windsor, waiting to find out what's wrong with said car, and for employer to call me back. I want to go home. This doesn't happen often, but I haven't been home since Christmas, and I really, really need to get out of Windsor. Seriously, I need to do some Toronto shopping. Blah.

grey's anatomy

I've been on this wagon since the series premiere, but last night, this little show about doctors and love won its place in my heart as my favourite TV 'appointment' program. You know I'm a diehard West Wing fan, but that's on hiatus right now, and they are pulling the plug at the end of the season (a decision I can live with). So Grey's Anatomy is my new love. Maybe I'll get the S1 DVDs tomorrow.

Catch My Breath

So finally handed the damn papers in, and had a cathartic Wal-Mart trip (I know, my life is sad) on Wednesday. Feels good after working almost camp-like hours for two weeks. Now I'm paper-free 'til April.

One week 'til Reading Week. Trying to get caught up in my readings this weekend so I can just coast next week. Plus there's a little something call Valentine's Day on Tuesday, so gotta slot some time for that. I haven't spent Valentine's Day in a relationship in 6 years. Sad but true.

Going home for a weekend on Reading Week, then job shadowing a 29 year old Crown Attorney(!) in London on Tuesday, here for a couple days, then road trip to Michigan with boyfriend (yes, we are sad and unimaginative, and broke). Plans to make oatmeal cookies this weekend. Two weeks ago we made brownies, and it was good.

Going to a Military Studies Conference tonight and tomorrow. The keynote speaker, Prof J.L. Granastein, practically wrote the book on Canadian military history. Should be good.

I killed another one of my goldfish. Fifth one since camp, I think, where I killed 4, at least.

"a little rant, and then I'll get to work"

It seems like I've been saying that quite a bit lately. I've had a frustrating week, and it took me a while to figure out why. It started off with my constitutional prof delivering an awesome lecture on freedom of expression last Thursday. I was totally engaged, and would have happily sat there all day listening to him. Then, the weekend of hell of writing my 25-page memo. On Tuesday, I think, I found out there is a Spring Term at the Castle in England that Queen's Law is offering courses in International Law through. I was so excited about it, and got all the stuff together for application, only to find out that Windsor won't transfer my credit even if I did go spend $10 000 for 2 months, doing exactly what I want to do (Int'l criminal law, int'l humanitarian law & public int'l law). And then there is the boyfriend, with whom things are generally going well, but the discussion of 'we should live together next year' keeps coming up.

I think the thing with school is that all of a sudden, listening to that lecture made me realize that I know stuff. That might sound crazy, but first year at law school can make you feel pretty ignorant. And then this int'l law thing... I just feel that maybe I already have all the skills I need to do what I want to do, so why the hell don't I just get out there and start doing it? I'm so tired of books and papers - do I really need this to do what I want to do?

The answer is, of course, yes.

But still, I feel like running away.

already?

February?! Really? Already?! The weeks are flying by - it's just the weekends with papers to write that seems to drag.