Convocation
So in the scorching heat, I was in my 1A uniform (long sleeve shirt, tie, wool pants, wool tunic), at the Armour Heights Officers' Mess this morning from 10-12:30, getting graduated. Needless to say, it was a little warm. Quite an experience, listening to speakers tell war stories in which thousands of people die, and that's why we have to continue educating ourselves, lest we fall into the grips of stupidity. I got a red hood with a white border, and really looks pretty good on the blue uniform. Anyway, all done and stuff, so let's just see: M.A., B.Sc. Not bad!
Fly
My flight is at 10am tomorrow. 4 hours to Edmonton, then 3.5 hours to Cold Lake. The question is how long will the wait in between be. Last year it ended up being a 16 hour trip there. Internet access is going to be limited for the week or so, as we set up the camp. Have a fantastic summer!
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Falls, Beaches, Downtown
Niagara Falls
On Sunday, I spontaneously decided to drive out to Niagara Falls. It was just one of those get-up-and-go things that I don't do enough of. Anyway, it was really nice to be there. I remember going there on the last day of second year with my mom and grandma, before moving home. Then again in the summer after third year, and staying there for a weekend with two of my friends. Sad to report that the Clifton Hill attraction Alien Encounter is gone though. We went through that scary house like a S.W.A.T. team. Not. We were actually so freaked out that we stopped moving, and the ominious voice of the game operator had to tell us to keep moving, 'cuz we were holding up the group behind us. Heh! Good times. Then I was at the Falls again after fourth year, with a guy I was seeing at the time. Anyway, I went up to the Skylon Tower (which I've never been before) and watched the fireworks from there. It was great. Plus, went into a short film in the 3D/4D Theatre, in which they shake your chair and spray water in your face in accordance with the plot. It was fun for the 20 mins, but I don't think I could had taken much more of that interactivity with the screen.
Beaches
I got my sister out of school for some all-you-can-eat sushi at lunch. Then she decided to ditch school, and we went down to the beaches for some tanning and (mostly) window shopping. Love the feel of sand. The watermelon juice and strawberry ice cream were good too, though not so much the iced cappucino from Timothy's. We watched The Perfect Man in the evening. Fun to play hooky, though I understand that it is a pretty regular thing for my sis! ;)
Downtown
Spent the day meandering downtown with an old friend. You know the kind that you can just pick up a conversation from wherever you left off, be it a day or a year ago? And talk about everything or nothing at all? Yeah, I'm really lucky to have friends like that. She'll be going away (far away) for school, and I won't see her 'til Christmas, but I know we'll just pick up from here then.
On Sunday, I spontaneously decided to drive out to Niagara Falls. It was just one of those get-up-and-go things that I don't do enough of. Anyway, it was really nice to be there. I remember going there on the last day of second year with my mom and grandma, before moving home. Then again in the summer after third year, and staying there for a weekend with two of my friends. Sad to report that the Clifton Hill attraction Alien Encounter is gone though. We went through that scary house like a S.W.A.T. team. Not. We were actually so freaked out that we stopped moving, and the ominious voice of the game operator had to tell us to keep moving, 'cuz we were holding up the group behind us. Heh! Good times. Then I was at the Falls again after fourth year, with a guy I was seeing at the time. Anyway, I went up to the Skylon Tower (which I've never been before) and watched the fireworks from there. It was great. Plus, went into a short film in the 3D/4D Theatre, in which they shake your chair and spray water in your face in accordance with the plot. It was fun for the 20 mins, but I don't think I could had taken much more of that interactivity with the screen.
Beaches
I got my sister out of school for some all-you-can-eat sushi at lunch. Then she decided to ditch school, and we went down to the beaches for some tanning and (mostly) window shopping. Love the feel of sand. The watermelon juice and strawberry ice cream were good too, though not so much the iced cappucino from Timothy's. We watched The Perfect Man in the evening. Fun to play hooky, though I understand that it is a pretty regular thing for my sis! ;)
Downtown
Spent the day meandering downtown with an old friend. You know the kind that you can just pick up a conversation from wherever you left off, be it a day or a year ago? And talk about everything or nothing at all? Yeah, I'm really lucky to have friends like that. She'll be going away (far away) for school, and I won't see her 'til Christmas, but I know we'll just pick up from here then.
Happy 21st Birthday to my baby sis!
Sunday, June 19, 2005
slumming in Rexdale
I got into an accident on Thursday - minor, no injury, but because I hit an SUV, the damage is going to be expensive. Anyway, got into a fight with my mom, which was only tangentially related to the car thing, so now I'm spending a couple days with my sister in her room in Rexdale, by Humber College. She is nice to let me stay, but perhaps grown up siblings are just not meant to live together. Anyway, I'll be going home on Wed, 'cuz it's my sister birthday, so probably dinner with my mom. Thursday night I'm getting together with a couple of my mentors at cadets, Friday packing, Saturday Convocation, and Sunday flight to Cold Lake! Got a call from the boy last night - being apart has been hard, even though I only saw him 3 weeks ago. Hope for a great summer.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Old Skool Love
Anyone who I've had a serious conversation about relationships with, no doubt knows that there is just one guy I measure all others against. And often find lacking. The trouble with having too much time on your hands is that you start thinking about nonsense.
So he was having a minor crisis last week. And me, being me, immediately wanted to get him to talk to me about it. Part of me just wants to return the favour, 'cuz nearly every time I have a relationship thing, he is the one I run to. And part of me just want to know that I can still be that person who he'd feel like he can talk to. Anyway, crisis pretty much over, but now I'm left to over-think the whole situation.
Is it a sign of true friendship-after-relationship if you can talk about current relationship issues with them? We were saying how we are going to be bored until camp starts, and I almost (half-jokingly) said, "Maybe we should hook up for two weeks". What the hell is wrong with me? We are BOTH in relationships. We are both in long distance relationships. Anyway, we should still be able to have fun, and spend some time together, right? 'Cuz I know we won't at camp, when our respective significant others are there, and then I'll be gone again, for 3 years. What did we use to do when we were 16, with no money and no car, and no idea that we were in love?
I was sorting out my stuff and found some old floppy disks. For some reason, I had the foresight to save the entirety of our ICQ conversations that we had during my first year at Mac, the year we finally realized that we were in love after 5 years of knowing each other, and 1.5 years of being 'just friends'. And even now, 6 years later, reading that chat log, that relationship seems so much more real than the one I am in now. I love Rob, but that love seems so baseless and shallow compared to a relationship that was built on 5 years of friendship.
Look, I know all this is ridiculous. I just need to find something to occupy myself with, and I'll stop reminiscing about things best left in old shoeboxes, files that should never have been found and read. I have a boyfriend waiting to spend the summer with me.
It's just that this whole year, being back here, has been an endless trip down memory lane. Thoughts and emotions are even stronger now that I am preparing to leave again. Even in the best of relationships, one can wonder what could have been with that one old skool love, right?
... don't want you back,
But I'll never, ever love the same way again...
So he was having a minor crisis last week. And me, being me, immediately wanted to get him to talk to me about it. Part of me just wants to return the favour, 'cuz nearly every time I have a relationship thing, he is the one I run to. And part of me just want to know that I can still be that person who he'd feel like he can talk to. Anyway, crisis pretty much over, but now I'm left to over-think the whole situation.
Is it a sign of true friendship-after-relationship if you can talk about current relationship issues with them? We were saying how we are going to be bored until camp starts, and I almost (half-jokingly) said, "Maybe we should hook up for two weeks". What the hell is wrong with me? We are BOTH in relationships. We are both in long distance relationships. Anyway, we should still be able to have fun, and spend some time together, right? 'Cuz I know we won't at camp, when our respective significant others are there, and then I'll be gone again, for 3 years. What did we use to do when we were 16, with no money and no car, and no idea that we were in love?
I was sorting out my stuff and found some old floppy disks. For some reason, I had the foresight to save the entirety of our ICQ conversations that we had during my first year at Mac, the year we finally realized that we were in love after 5 years of knowing each other, and 1.5 years of being 'just friends'. And even now, 6 years later, reading that chat log, that relationship seems so much more real than the one I am in now. I love Rob, but that love seems so baseless and shallow compared to a relationship that was built on 5 years of friendship.
Look, I know all this is ridiculous. I just need to find something to occupy myself with, and I'll stop reminiscing about things best left in old shoeboxes, files that should never have been found and read. I have a boyfriend waiting to spend the summer with me.
It's just that this whole year, being back here, has been an endless trip down memory lane. Thoughts and emotions are even stronger now that I am preparing to leave again. Even in the best of relationships, one can wonder what could have been with that one old skool love, right?
... don't want you back,
But I'll never, ever love the same way again...
Sunday, June 12, 2005
use at own risk
A friend of mine sent me this, and I'm posting it here in case anyone else is interested. Don't really know how it works though:
http://www.freeiPods.com/?r=19312452
http://www.freeiPods.com/?r=19312452
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
The Keg & A First Farewell
Tonight my cadets had a summer camp meeting, and all promotional candidates were debriefed by the staff. Afterwards, the staff went out to The Keg, and we celebrated the end of another training year. It was really nice, and we were there 'til after midnight. It'll be the last time I see most of the staff before we all leave for the summer, and I might not see many of them before I leave for Windsor after camp, so I might not see them for a while. I just realized this as we were standing around in the parking lot, still chatting, as we got into our cars. I didn't want to make it all emotional and stuff, but still, felt a little wistful about leaving the year behind. For all it's craziness, this squadron holds so much memories for me, and this year added so much more. I'm excited about everything to come, but feeling a twinge of melancholy of leaving 'home' behind again.
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