Happy New Year!

MSN has these adorable graphics and emoticon to celebrate the Year of the Dog. Wishing everyone the best.

Aren't Chinese smart to give you money to help you through the January blahs? ;)

inaction

I have this major paper due on Monday, and I am paralyzed into inaction. Why do I get like this? I know it has to get done, yet I ended up wasting the whole day yesterday. It is not a matter of 'needing the time pressure' or some other juvenile excuse. Am I just that afraid of trying? 'Cuz if I don't try, it's okay not to excel, right? But if I do, and it's still not good enough, then that's a reflection of my ability. Not sure what that says about me. I don't want to write.

kindness

I was having a really blah day yesterday. Actually, it was a little bipolar, alternating between blah and nervous breakdown. Jonathan's parents were visiting him, so I didn't want to intrude. I really wanted to go home next weekend for Chinese New Year, but I can't 'cuz of these (#*$&# papers. And then I started thinking about my mom not having once visited me here yet, and my dad not yet speaking to me anymore, and how I want to go home, but no where really feels like home anymore, and etc blah. But then Jonathan cooked me dinner, and his mom brought me a huge housewarming basket with lots of goodies (see below), and I got a belated birthday present in the mail (bracelet and Dead Like Me S2), and everything is going to be alright.