tryin' to be a busy bee

Just trying to stay busy. Instructing 4-5 hours a day just doesn't really do it for me. So, as secondary duties, I've taken on/been appointed Assistant Unit Human Rights Advisor, Assistant Parade Coordinator, and National Drill Team Staff. As well, I'm the unofficial Admin Officer of the Instructor's Cell. That should keep me busy enough, so I don't stand in the doorway of the lounge for 10 minutes when I saw that he'd fallen asleep there, then start crying for no particular reason at all.

drama

So, you want drama? I've got drama. This whole thing with Rob has just gotten out of control. We can't talk civilly, or interact in any meaningful manner for that matter, and I have no idea why he is trying so hard to deliberately hurt me. I just know that I have to walk away, but it really doesn't help that, just like last year, I see him once about every 3 hours. It's not a big camp, and it is just insanely hard. Like, you know, when you were in high school, and you keep running into your ex in the hallway? Anyway, enough is enough. I have to believe that I can do better.

Being at camp doesn't spare you from the family drama either. My aunt has just demanded that my mom, sister and I contribute to the living expense of my father. She is not asking for an extraordinary sum, but considering that we are living in my grandma's basement, and my mom just started having some commision-based work... I just don't know. Yes, at some point it is my responsibility to take on the responsibilities of the family. But I also want to take the opportunities in my life without feeling guilty.

But at least, I'm very happy with my job this summer, and my friends here are being really supportive. Hopefully things will work out with my leave, so I can go to Vancouver to see my cousin's Shad grad at UBC.

INSTRUCTOR!

We got our job assignments yesterday, and my heart was going at Mach 3 when they made the assignments. I am going to be an Instructor this year!! If it's not too cocky to say so, being an Instructor on the National Senior Leaders Course is kinda prestigous, and something I've wanted to do for a long time, so I'm thrilled beyond words.

The staff cadets are arriving today and tomorrow, and they will go through one week of indoctrination training before receiving their job assignments. Then the course cadets will arrive, and camp officially start. I have 5 of my course cadets from last year returning as staff, which is fantastic.

Relationship is... unspeakably disasterous... more later.