From time to time I discover a new song, and play it on an endless loop, until I know all the words. And then I'll read too much into the lyrics and find application to my life from it. (it is hardly the weirdest thing I do)
I love sad songs. I don't know why. I find that sad songs can touch me more deeply than happy ones. And truly, do not a song with a sense of longing resonate more strongly? It's not that my life is unhappy, I just feel like I can understand sadness better. I am pensive and introspective by nature. I feel joy and contentment, but I'm not the jump around with happiness type.
Haven't heard a song that moves me lately though.
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I'm not a fickle person, I don't think. I rarely change the way I feel about someone. It's probably a form of stubbornness. Mostly I am content to feel the way I feel, and wait for the world to change. As Goethe said, if I love you, what business is it of yours? But lately I have been feeling restless, and wanting things to change, to actually give what I want a chance. Relationships have never ranked very high in my life. I mean, I value them and a lot of drama usually surround them. I give them priority when I'm in them, but I have never really been the one to actively try to pursue them for my own happiness (mostly because I don't know how). But I've been feeling I want more, and I'm no longer content to just let things (not) happen. But the funny thing with relationship is that you can never 'make it happen', can you? You can't change how the other person feels, and in truth you don't even have any right to demand a response or explanation. We feel how we feel; we can't even explain it most days even if we wanted to. So perhaps it should be enough that I feel this way, and it shouldn't matter that the other person doesn't, or doesn't even know.
I love sad songs. I don't know why. I find that sad songs can touch me more deeply than happy ones. And truly, do not a song with a sense of longing resonate more strongly? It's not that my life is unhappy, I just feel like I can understand sadness better. I am pensive and introspective by nature. I feel joy and contentment, but I'm not the jump around with happiness type.
Haven't heard a song that moves me lately though.
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I'm not a fickle person, I don't think. I rarely change the way I feel about someone. It's probably a form of stubbornness. Mostly I am content to feel the way I feel, and wait for the world to change. As Goethe said, if I love you, what business is it of yours? But lately I have been feeling restless, and wanting things to change, to actually give what I want a chance. Relationships have never ranked very high in my life. I mean, I value them and a lot of drama usually surround them. I give them priority when I'm in them, but I have never really been the one to actively try to pursue them for my own happiness (mostly because I don't know how). But I've been feeling I want more, and I'm no longer content to just let things (not) happen. But the funny thing with relationship is that you can never 'make it happen', can you? You can't change how the other person feels, and in truth you don't even have any right to demand a response or explanation. We feel how we feel; we can't even explain it most days even if we wanted to. So perhaps it should be enough that I feel this way, and it shouldn't matter that the other person doesn't, or doesn't even know.
1 comment:
For a sad song that doesn't sound so sad, try "Sad Song" by Room Eleven. It's a wonderful little jazzy Dutch group, and don't worry, they sing in English :)
Joyce
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